2003 年 6 月 30 日 星期一 【晴】

逃避並不能解決問題
它只會令問題越積越大
好像雪球一般….

好像寫日記
多日不寫妄想一次過清
只會越積越多
正確解決方法是由今天開始做
不要再拖
日記如是
工作如是
人際關係如是
學業如是…..

看了成績
沒有意料之外
只是想著如何面對家人朋友
好像平時一般??
嘻嘻哈哈混混地過就算
將來呢?
我先要向自己負責
再向身邊的人負責
想先調整一下心情
雖然這一刻仍然很平靜
可能我對自己沒有要求吧
對他人亦沒有
可是
他人, 社會對我仍然是有要求的
不肯承擔
負責的我
亦應要面對現實
為自己做過的事負責
我提’負責’這兩字太多次
但若不這樣提醒自己
我怕我會’忘記’
我怕我腦裹的選擇性記憶把這二字忘記
利用狂歡去’忘記’不快事
這便是逃避….
這兩年,
甚至更久(可能是我把自己困在房打機開始)
我一直採用這人生處世方式
對生活(放心，不是生命)失去熱誠
‘人生咪又係咁過’
可以0係漫畫店做keeper
‘打死一世工’
一樣可以
問題是
這是否我的理想生活?
我的未來?
不要再說冇乜所謂
不要再對自己冇要求
不要再expect人地對你冇要求
不要忘記承諾
不要再知而不行
不要再拖!
好好計劃自己的未來
未必一定要大學畢業才有美滿人生(半安慰自己)
總之向著自己目標進發
做了後悔比不做後悔要好

始終
有一點失落……


>>July 8, 2003 at 9:15:04 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 29 日 星期日 【晴】

I am a person always late
Not considerate
Its time for me to consider others feeling…..
Bring many inconvenience
e.g.
today lunch
leave father and sister
promise is promise!!

Play bb with Siu dog
Jap
Jack
Fok B
Not play so long…
Always waiting….
Fok B improve a lot
As well as the long time no c Siu Dog
Fok B become In and out
Siu become more stable performance
BJ combo very diff to win
Cannot replay the match la
Haha~
I play with kids quite gd la
Hope can bring them sthg la^^
Juz a little bit can win
For the third match
We really enjoy the game
Not equal to dun mind winning
But cooperate can bring lots of fun
Rather than win
Siu Dog says a gd word
Like sixer
Even Iverson score lots
But only 1 man show
Ignore teammates feeling
Result is lose
I think if win
Also dun happy
Juz a show off….
Siu and I like Kidd most
He is my target ar!!


Jap 老抽抽 ar
Is ok now?
Warm up and warm down more next time~~

Share a lot with Siu
He is very socialable
Even I bring him to hall he ca chat even 祥哥not include Leung this mouth water guy….
He force himself to do so…
I hv a bit羨慕
But is it gd??
He told me to try
Juz even practice can really know wht u wanna
But I think I hv my step
But I will try to step up onebyone

Bring him back hall practice bridge
He really ging
Always talk with Long for sthg I really cant follow
But its gd ar!
However
Am I need to improve myself actively now???
I always put myself on a lazy playing mood
Almost all the things
I satisfied a state
Its time for me to set a higher target to achieve it
Now we will hv 13 halls to comp
Ho
來勁!!

Tmr is monopoly comp la
I juz hv little bit achievement of this la
Not only me
Many ppl hv help me
Chu, Pang, Kong, PP,Bun……..even now I cant found any group is better than our 99players gp
ET, TinTin, KimYiu and TKP guys
I share with all of u and enjoy the game u^^
Hung u bring me to CBC
Though I am not gd in chong
Really thanks
Zero, Thomas, Leotin, Ray, Anthony, King
U bring me into other field of this game
How to be a judge
I really enjoy the moment to cooperate with u…..
I really miss all of u…..
Now I wanna enter the other stage ls
I really desire to champ
That’s wht I strive for
Tmr to be a head judge is the first step
I will try the best to touch this game in more and more fields
2004’
wait for me!


>>July 8, 2003 at 9:14:14 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】

today I play bb with my sister
she wanna to throwin
but cannot
I try to encourage her
Teach her
But still cannot
May I not hv enough patient?
My method not right
I know it cannot be done once
But I made her lose her passion…..
Ofcoz today is quite hot and the training is harsh
Add oil la
Meme

Then I go K lunch with Easternality
Long time no c la~
Especially yam and Jap
Haha~
7 fds together
ging~~

then some of us goto play games
ai
cont twice cannot finish time crisis3….
Old la
Play Para once feel very tired…..

Then join them to play bb
Hvnt play quite a long time
Feel tired and not stable
Train is needed
Old devil ging and ging now la
Esp his 鬥志
I selfish again
Change habit
Try pass more even not in my control
Believe more other
Then go Once again city
Buy the shoe la
Happyhappy
Those meme hv nothing
Hoho
Juz kid jei~~

Back home
Lots of things hvnt done
Juz ask ppl to play bridge
Then finish the rule
Next time dun play icq and work
Not effective……..
But really happy

Simple make happy
Right?


>>July 8, 2003 at 9:12:49 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 27 日 星期五 【晴】

today know abt to true
its time for me to face myself
cant escape
dun shift the responsibility to others
to be active
dun be lazy!!

Today doing nothing ar
But juz with father to window shopping
Long time hvnt with family
It’s a gd time to do so
I hv seen a basketball shoe
Very cheap ar
Wanna buybuy!!

Know sthg hvnt done
But juz hv a rest today la
Hv plan to do


>>July 8, 2003 at 9:11:56 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 25 日 星期三 【晴】

有時你plan左0既野未必可以實行
好似今日咁
本來plan左練牌
但因人腳唔齊又turn down
冇壞
陪Harry食飯睇Naruto
再同阿朗Search下Farewell禮物
唔話你知search到咩住
故作神秘
哈哈

同同房傾左憑咩Criteria揀女朋友
或者女仔又點揀男朋友
發覺同佢諗法好一致
其實係咪應該我同房做’男友’呢?
哈哈~~

你個AGS case
你個fd同七友首歌個主角一模一樣
俾我揀
我可能會選擇將幸福帶給我心愛的人….

0係Cyber見番師父
同Kan哥0係一齊
傾左一陣
有成年冇見啦~~
好開心~~
遲d meeting再見啦

成日變??
只要想一想原則
回到原點
就會清楚自己方向


>>July 8, 2003 at 9:10:46 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 24 日 星期二 【晴】

今日聽AIA既seminar
獲益良多
除了學會一些present手法
(有位講者present得好似Ken Chan
成場楝篤笑咁)
佢地好識帶氣氛
同埋同台下的intereaction做得很好
這talk更令我對自己Career有了初步的構想
要認清了自己方向!!

承擔
成年人
揹左冇得你揀
加油teamcap
當磨練

‘some memory clear
some memory blur’
我差唔多所有memory都blur
哈哈….

心如太平洋
一片寧靜…….

要像七友
要為人設想……

為何愛人
為何愛一個人??


>>July 8, 2003 at 8:57:22 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

開始有D野做下
不像以往咁無聊
但是否自己的心態有問題?
對工作沒熱誠就是不投入的藉口?
咁點解唔試下0係工作找樂趣?
敬業樂業

夜晚同GEAR去飲冰食DIN
下次咪鬼去啦
又貴又唔好食
之後陪佢地入貸
嘩~~~~
成車杯麵
駛唔駛啊?
因住肥死你地~~

O-CAMP同I-DAY都要搏盡啊!!
我地D FANS永遠支持你地GA
YEAH!

練牌
氣氛不太好啊
自己不懂帶起
好像以前Bridge & Chess分開玩咁…..
不過今次係Bridge & Bridge
你有你玩
我有我玩咁
係咪我擔心得太多呢?
Sor啊
史提芬朱
悶親你TIM~~

朋友
什麼是朋友?
關心對方
談話冇隔膜
乜都肯share
我係咪有很多朋友?
我當每一個身邊的人都是朋友?
每一個身邊的人都當我是朋友?
我不知道…..
只知要珍惜目前所有

祝Mark Gor文文appeal成功

真誠……..


>>July 8, 2003 at 8:48:42 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 22 日 星期日 【晴】

今日開EGM
很快完成
Even有大mistakes
(嘻嘻…睇唔到)
都唔知係好事定壞事啦…..
唉~~

跟著番左陣hall
又唔見樓友0係樓
激死>.<
好在Exco房重新開放
Yeah~~
Feel so good
Haha~~
Cheer:
Swirian呀, Swirian
We’ll be the champion
Yes!
勁!

同莊友食飯
勁0係度講一生一藝術個camp d野
攪到我好鬼想去tim~~
好
下年報!

番到屋企
睇番notebook入面呢兩年的documents…..
發覺自己原來一直想忘記不快經歷
知道自己點解唔鍾意做leader
知道自己逃避
知道自己點解失去熱誠
以前
岩岩入U嗰陣乜都夠膽死
而家?
成熟了?
斯文了?
定膽怯了

一個容易內疚的撻皮精
有自虐狂?

乜都心急
EQ低…..

檸樂和檸七都要努力!!

PP祝你幸福啦

七友不是一首形容我的歌
有些人比我更適合
但我希望可以這首歌的歌詞成為我的目標


>>July 8, 2003 at 8:32:55 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 21 日 星期六 【晴】

今日0係City度講大富翁talk
感覺不俗
我真的很喜歡大富翁^^
雖然我prep得唔係好充份
但有人問到d有sense的問題
令大家(包括我自己)對這隻game的rules更熟悉
令我感到好老師當然重要
但能和自己切磋的好學生(或對手)亦同樣重要

我從未想過自己可以好好地present d野出來
但其實並不難
首先自己要對該topic有了深入的認識
然後要明白聽眾想要的是什麼
可是一些present技巧我還未到家
有講還快過想
太心急了
人家更難明
不過這次我有了些體會啦

做一個好leader
除了要識帶氣氛
或識攪笑
更要觀察力好
知你週邊的人點諗
體諒他們的感受
才下決定
不要只順著氣氛
以直覺行事


>>July 8, 2003 at 8:16:23 PM GMT+8

2003 年 6 月 20 日 星期五 【晴】

值得?
咩叫值得?
難道對你來說
一切對你有利的就是值得?
付出
能否不問收穫去付出
有時可能很笨
但只要你認為值得
就去付出
每人價值觀不同
不能勉強
但
有時
能付出
已是一件幸運的事
你明白嗎?

>>July 8, 2003 at 9:26:50 PM GMT+8