又過了half month....
a week that's so challenging
a week that's so tiring and sick
everything stops
and now I can breath again , for a short while
then I have to back to the hell again soon
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I'm tired
handed in the assignment.
used me 3 days to had it done
with 2 were overnight
I want to die.
Right after feel sick...not really having an illness this time
but just power ALL used up........alerting.
that 3 days were horrible
from Sat to Mon.
Sun zZ at around 6
Mon wake at 830 and had a bread with me to school
back to home at 8
........so busy that I attend the 1st and 3rd lessons
the middle one I "run"
so I rushed the hw
and then didn't take lunch....
afterall.
I FORGOT abt lunch.
It's the very very 1st time I FORGOT lunch
usually when I don't take lunch, I'm always MISSING it. Thinking abt it no matter what I'm doing.
but that time I forgot it untill dinner time came
I got thinner I feel so cham
so Monday night I had a big bowl of rice , whatever throw into my stomach.
I dont like my life rushing like this.
it has to be slow for my own style.
too fast; I feel like the time 's running so fast that I can't even remember what I 've been doing!
get it slower is the only way I can enjoy life
rush really makes me sick
body suffered
today I back home by school bus
it's also the v. first time I keep 'nodding' cos I fell asleep.
I really can't bear it.
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I never wish to make myself hungry
when I come to university, then I realise the feeling of hungry is so bad
in sec school, day day starts lunch at 1130.
never had such bad feeling.
so I think, ppl in poor countries like africa
are really poor, never get full in stomach.
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最近喜歡上一位作家
叫梁芷珊
I like the thought from her
I always agree with her view.
if coming with 素黑
she's more natural, but deep.
and at the same time, feeling a bit bored by 素黑
cos I can expect what she would say
every man has a little child inside his heart.
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suddenly think of.
絕症like HIV.
no cure for HIV.
Good
If HIV is just like normal influenza.........
A: 你病 jor 呀?
B: 係啊,愛滋jar ma.
A: Or, 執幾劑就無事ga la
人會自覺守規矩,總要有d野嚇下先得
otherwise, 呢個世界真係無mud moral values了.
如果無HIV this fatal disease.
d 人就會更加open 更加濫
so disgusting.
recently heard 小人G 俾人hup.
I just thought ,你都有今日喇.
she complained that her roommate already bring "son" in their room
nearly everyday when she's not in hall.
she feels disturbing.
do dirt things in hall is really quite 缺德
cos it's really disturbing to others.
I'm more lucky ,cos I lived in single room. The bitches also quite disturbing
but the influence is not as serious as 小人G lu
抵佢死
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I 've changed to New World in my school Mega Sales.
49/1100 mins.
plus 12 just 60' something.
it's a Uni student offer.
I'll change to that on 25
like 25 this number.
everything starts to be good.
Dualband 3 is like a shit.
I can't bear with it anymore.
with its poor service and low efficiency.
Bad!
Very Bad.
I think I won't change to any other mobile service provider again in a short period
so don't SMS me if it costs u.
Or better change.
I know many ppl have contracts with it
but actually, as I worked in similiar field before.
buying a new mobile independently and then apply for the service
is not much different from buying plans offered by the companies.
doesnt really save much. I have compared already long ago.
so I can really see that marketing strategies are quite influential.
"$0 plan"
"Buy one get one free"
things relate to "free" or "0" often attract ppl and are quite successful.
psycho issues
I really gotta go. I'm going to drop my head off on the desk. zZ
>>October 17, 2006 at 6:31:35 PM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 11 日 星期三 【晴】
[汽水]
汽水跟我的關係很奇妙.
受人影響後我唯一最大的改變就是汽水選擇不同了.
to be continued
so tired....I just put all my hikki's songs to WMPlayer.
and choose the random mode, to keep me awake....
久不久總要聽下hikki's songs.
her songs never get me bored.
v. busy for constructing "faeces". next week 再說
>>October 12, 2006 at 6:49:20 AM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 10 日 星期二 【晴】
無端端need to go to school. professors are really bothering ppl
煩煩煩呀!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She just want us to rehearse the 4 mins oral presentation
4 mins!!
but meeting will last for 1 hr
1 hr!!
low efficiency?!
I better record it and send it through email.
gum 鍾意聽就慢慢聽飽佢
oh......I'm so worried abt Friday.....
although black friday doesnt have any effect on me in the past.
but now I work every Fri
唔多唔少都有d 擔心.......
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I know the professor doesnt like me ......
but as today my performance is fine
she didn't say much.
......no reason for ppl like u or dislike u .......
even u did nth.
but there're so much much reasons without logics in the world.
have to feel it out....
the reasons sometimes maybe just simply the barest feeling from inner heart.
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I still cannot start my assignment
I'm looking at the PA (PK) hw from 少爺
um...he seems quite interested in it. I'm happy abt that
so .....although my time is really running out, I'll still check for him
(and actually I'm doing the question from the beginning myself.)
very very ironically, the PK I did was all written "V. Good!" in comment when it's returned
How IRONIC the PK is.
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通常又窮又文化水平低的人/國家, 總是只能夠靠一d好激進gei o野to draw others attention.
N. Korea 核彈試射成功後,我突然覺得好驚, cuz really have the death feeling.
ai, 如果真係射過黎,gum 我地一定死ga la......無miracle ga la..........死ga la, 落hell ga la.
what the hell.
如果好快就要死............臨死前想做甚麼?
(打劫銀行..)
以前AL exam 都好似出過類似題目,但係無mood lum 就係無得lum ga la...
E+N Korea 話試射成功.....
gum 我又真係驚驚地 wor...
又開始認真lum lum bor..
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我覺得有點奇怪.
有時候tarot mizz 說一些話.....without reasons.
like ...after lesson , u may dream a lot.
it's true! ........
I dream more after Sunday.
before tarot lessons start again , I seem don't have that many...or at least not as that clear.
.........
係mic 因為動用到直覺感應, and so there're more dreams?
直覺同夢有無關係?
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the man (beggar?) who sings with a guitar and a mic (那兒有插蘇??)in Tai Po, the tunnel outside the KCR exit.
he sings well.
gives a pleasant feeling to the ppl around.
so tired, gdnight
>>October 11, 2006 at 5:51:13 PM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 10 日 星期二 【晴】
做了成日東西(+玩玩下)
overall in my mind I feel I've done so much already.
cos I'm really not used to focus on serious matters whole time.
我覺得現在我是透點氣
今天12 woke still feeling so tired all the time
but luckily could stay on doing those things.
I did the Grammar online test , so bothering I failed, just 0.5 mark lower than the line.
but it doesnt matter ba.
cos I feel dizzy and spent much time seriously doing it.
v. strange it failed. the strange thing was that the MCs I got correct were more than last time.
so I got improved, I'm quite sure.
but last time I didn't fail
just don't know how he count the marks.
professor he's gonna to be fired, everybody 's complaining him.
I don't want to cause him unemployed.
it's so cruel and he's so old.
having gd performance rely on both professor's lectures and efforts by ourselves.
so if I 've never ever put the effort.........at least finish the 1xx -200 pages bk,
then I'm not suitable to criticize
最近工作上不是很好......人事關係是很複雜.
基本上同事不能做朋友....so that there're colleagues and friends two categories
反而是lower paid 那份
我次次放工後我都要透氣,don't know y. I just need a DEEP breath after I left from work place.
好驚得罪人
但係得罪人這回事就算你甚麼都沒有做也會發生
and that's called 小人.
so 壓力跟薪金不成正比
例如sales 壓力都好大,isn't it
女皇的教室對我好諷刺...
at the beginning 真矢was v. nice and hardworking
she wrote so much comment in her students' hw.
oh my god........actually I'm just exactly want to do that, from the past till now
but in the programme, it just showed the reality.
that colleagues dont like u to be SO hard-working ........no body likes u to be that enthusiastic.
on the sofa it just made me a bit embarrassed.
so strange
I never feel like this due to TV programmes.
it's good. cos it leaves a number of questions for me, abt the manner of career and school bullying
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actually y I use this background?
cos it's familiar to me but I actually have never been to bangkok.
and there's a term Deja Vu, which is also the name of this song.
Deja Vu......French term.
meaning sth u've never come across but u feel u do somewhere/time before.
it's a psy. term
but it's quite a funny term
in Chinese , I think I can use 似曾相識to replace Deja Vu.
recently feel lot of things is Deja Vu. for me without reason.
some of the premises in hk are so old that it shouldn't exist but I still can see them when I'm on the way in KCR train.
v. v. poorly built
I can say they're not houses actually but just ....shelters.......
I wonder how frightened the ppl living inside when there's typhoon or raining storm?
if there's trip to visit these ppl and the houses.....I'm really glad to see.
for those places like 金廁所....
真係好無聊..........
起個廁所唔屙得我真係唔知為mud.
E+ d 人真係好得閒
but for those places that cannot live anyone still have someone staying inside.
it's really worth to have a look.
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[sea shock]
......fear of the dark sea,
since long time ago.
and I remember there're lot of unpleasant things happened over there...the dark sea no matter in hk or somewhere else outside
but ppl will never understand my own unique feeling cos it 's often regarded as sth favourable.
dark and unlucky energy is formed there.
ripples driving horror and stimulating all senses.
in fact sea is never calm .....
when ppl describe it as a mirror, it's just a description from a distant shot
I also feel relax when looking it from far away;
but when I really come close to the scene, esp in dark
it just makes me feeling so uneasy
and I can just say
don't approach there at usual time.
if tarot mizZ said 'intuition protects you' is true;
then my intuition abt the sea is a danger for me.
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tired, goodnight.
hope to visit wetland and Lantau Buddha before 2007 comes.
particularly I want to eat 齋, I do like it :P
我現在才算剛剛開始領略到上莊的苦....真係好麻煩..
choir members just like my sons and daughters....樣樣都要出海陸空通告(tel, email and intranet msg)
好似少一樣唔得gum,,,,
這究竟是chairman's leadership problem or my babies problems?!
真係好怕別人不夠爽快..這樣會好低效率.
yesterday zZ too late
today just headache.
ate some fruits,
better zZ early tonight goodnight
.....女皇的教室 is v. gd.
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以你為先..好騙.
>>October 9, 2006 at 5:31:22 PM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 8 日 星期日 【晴】
hei: PGDE 唔清楚, but for us full time programme the institute will help us ask abt that; for u may not be same school cuz it's actually not easy to find a place for u to practise, even for us too.
我E+都唔太sure if I'll back to mine.
abt Xmas may know, I'll start my Field Experience in January.
if u want to know later tell u.
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[反問問路]
Elaine: 其實I should go, not u forced me. When I paid for it then I had decided to go already just 隻腳驚穿水pok 所以儘量唔出街 :p
hee hee. "雙魚係要成雙先郁得"
it's ur own unique character.
托你的福還是很殘的我今日竟然有兩個男人主動指引我們去向
it's great.
on bus a man asked where we wanted to off from bus..
afterall he got a seat and still yell the right way to us at the back.
然後下車又即刻有另外一個男人主動問我o地問mud 路
還是平生聽到:請問兩位想去邊?
oh my god...just like 武俠小說的人....
然後我們一路行他還回頭一路看我們有沒有行錯,從遠處yell 再點多次
這次經驗好有趣, 好delighted
覺得我好似貴賓,沿途有"點路使者",好威呀 :)))
so,雖然我跛跛o地好痕,但係今日一去都好值得
聽人問路就好平常
反問問路!
i think if we're forty's....I don't think we'll have 點路使者for 嬸嬸們..
這就是青春可貴啊.....
唉,2字頭開始,以後每年生日....儘量低調.
yea,today I had a new new new experience.
no one else except us ever tried?
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hair wet ,can't zZ.
and not used to the hair drier.
I want to cut my hair shorter later.
to look modern and fashionable.
我在想甚麼時候我會收到惡耗.
長期depressed 我遇jor 自己好快cancer.
of course I don't want cancer, I'm young.
好大壓力.
it's not the first time I got warnings from my body defence mechanism. 之前搞到生蛇我好驚.
I got abt 60 tablets of Vit. C at home
today I took 2
I hate these things, but still have to take cos I 'm lazy to eat fruits actually.
I hate tear oranges......
I hate peel apples....
I'm so lazy.
I like to eat pulms...grapes(no seed)....that I can just throw them into my stomach right away.
from now on I'll try best to sleep before 1am,eat fruits EVERYDAY and have some walks in park
hope to play roller.
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shit, I don't know it's gonna 4am
goodnight!
>>October 8, 2006 at 7:41:15 PM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 7 日 星期六 【晴】
Hei: 很久沒見, sorry for late reply.
yea, u have to take PGDE (Postgraduate Diploma in Education Programme)
this is our school's site.
http://www.ied.edu.hk/acadprog/postgrad/prog/pgde_prog
but I know other institutes also have the programme.
i know abt PGDE just becos when I was taking the hall lift last yr, a guy who took PGDE said that he's from UST
大大聲as if he's delivering a speech.
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心情好差
got 2 monsquito bites on left leg
I really did cried on the bathing tub at mid-night cos I couldn't lift up my leg which was heavy and tight.
the bites swell up....affected area as if 叉燒包wide.
feel like burning hot and whole red.
painful,numb and itchy
swell up since much blood serum comes out.
and that breaks the outter skin cells
so even I rub it v.v. softly, there's skin rubbed out. (luck 皮)
now it forms water bubbles.....I'm not dare touch them ,worried if they will break.
I can expect two newly scars're coming.
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我以後返學都唔再著裙,except for v.special day!!!
我以為大埔就會俾蚊咬jel, 點知道九龍塘企得耐一樣會
個日真係黑過墨斗呀!
school bus broke down and then late for 30 mins! otherwise I wouldn't stand under the big tree for such a long time and had been on bus to school!!!!
then I won't get bites!
even the driver didn't take any fare from us
遲到之餘,
我覺得個十幾蚊賠唔起我gei 損失law........
this 2week 我有3,4日morning wake up 咳血
搞到恐慌, 驚唔知係mic Sat lesson speak too loudly hurt my vocal cords.
好彩this wed choir I still could sing.
just feel my throat easy to get tired and need to clear my throat more frequently.
so I have to take gd care of my voice.
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我從來都唔會妨礙別人的私人時間
你唔煩我我都已經多謝你.
真係話知你死你事
唔好到時候呻我"漠不關心"
話我煩,你認錯人呀?我仲有5 個professor email 要覆, 我今日覆jor 兩個之後已經無jor 大半個afternoon 要即刻zZ 2 hrs 補精神.
我邊gum 多個"得閒煩"!
我仲有份2000字assignment a week after 要交,再加oral presentation rehearsal next wed
又要備課 for next Sat; Fri 我要返工; Sun 我要學tarot
Wed 仲要IT workshop whole night.
我有邊幾日剩做assignment ar?!
我都唔知幾想自己出街買o野!
有時候講野真係唔好gum 過分!
我抽d時間出黎, showing my concern,
你真係yat 屎 la.
tired. goodnight.
>>October 7, 2006 at 5:26:37 PM GMT+8
2006 年 10 月 2 日 星期一 【晴】
教學上有少少失敗的感覺
hope later better
it needs more adjustment.
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今日我見到個beggar 受傷行乞
人太多,
發現他是因為看見ok 多人俾$佢
我覺得好驚因為佢成隻腳都沒有了塊皮...
是皮血不清
有紫黑紅...
還有發炎的膿,...我沒有行近看清楚
I just knew his whole leg was injured.
it's so disgusting that I feel he's so poor.
我本來剿緊我個銀包,因為我記得我有個大餅,
lum 住俾佢.
不過都俾人拉走了,因為過馬路. (可見d 人其實無mud同情心 :p)
我想折返,不過又趕時間.
um, 如果下次見到佢gei 話,幫我俾我大餅佢 la
he's around Time's square, I remember, near a big crossing
如果下次我見到佢時間趕都要停下.
如果唔係就好衰
gum 當然如果我見到佢我可能會叫佢去hospital.
.....其實我返屋企,我認真想過, 我應該幫佢報警....
E+公立醫院要收$100,..我lum 佢就算beg 到$100佢都唔捨得去hospital
但係gum 樣 his leg may need to be cut !
i don't know......
at least, should buy a bottle of antiseptic agent...
and use clean towel to wrap it..
otherwise sit on dirty street is really v. unhygienic and scared passer-by around.
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help! lack of calcium!
oh, I want Laneige water sleeping pack (mask)
I feel so tired.
goodnight first.
>>October 2, 2006 at 6:19:48 PM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 27 日 星期三 【晴】
心情超差la.
a number of bad news:
勁出粒粒
經常用concealer 都唔係辦法
我好明白, cosmetics products are actually like drug.
once start using those things, will soon like taking drug, need more and use more.
好彩7/10 正式放假.
我要休息!
teacher from alma mater sms me asked if I will have my Field Experience in there
cos the deputy principal said that there will be student teacher from ied.
oh. I really don't know ied has already helped me contact with my alma mater.
probably it's me if she meant the ppl are Yr2 students.
so shit I dont like working there.
really so shit this time.
I know, my classmates must envy me if they know this.
but I really want some places new for me....co-ed/ boys schools are preferred.
Dame I always stay in girls place.
and I don't want to meet the men in there anymore.
now just wait and see if the news is true. I'll know it soon......before next sem
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another issue is that the girl who are treating gd to me is terrible to me
從來我d 真正朋友對我都麻麻o地 (從來我都覺得我對佢o地好過佢o地對我 :P)
佢對我太好
我又低估jor 佢背境,原來佢雜到不得了
仲話約我中秋出黎行下
容mud易給我甚麼飲料
gum 真係xyz.
我一定唔會同佢出去.
女仔都係gum 話!
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feel so tired.
今日不算是很累cos I woke at 10
but....今日俾個8 婆asked sth
成堂就好似懸浮粒子
無心機上堂......
其實我的專心時間can last long for several hours.
一個中學生的專注力只有8-15 mins.
所以我的專注力也算很好啊.
不過今日個兩堂又開始發白日夢.....
近排都沒有發白日夢,
and honestly I really like to think silly things during lesson if I'm not paying attention.
可能最近太忙,無時間lum 無謂野
連電話費都唔得閒交,
如果遲d cell phone 揾唔到我,gum ring my home sin la.
怕且遲早cut 線
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備課
goodnight
>>September 28, 2006 at 4:35:45 PM GMT+8
2006 年 9 月 27 日 星期三 【晴】
Much Better
recovering rapidly
the medicine works
and of course I'm quite healthy and strong too.
still quite busy cos have to hand in 2 assignment in Oct.
now just had done the 50% of the preparation of the coming Sat lesson.
Gosh. each lesson used me up quite much time.
so how can I start the career in future...it's quite impossible.
If I'm not well-prepared I'll get nervous.
尋晚開始揾資料
and then zZ
early morning gone through 5-hr for 2 lessons
then lunch not more than 30 mins, crazy.
then I ran for IT workshop, although I'm really exhausted, I still try to bear it and keep myself awake till the end of the workshop:)
actually it's not compulsory but I want to finish all 5 workshop before I grad.
up till now I've done 3 workshops already , multimedia I ,authoring ed. resources(forget what it is abt already) and spreadsheet (today)
happy
still have webpage design and multimedia II.
last yr finished 2 workshops
hope I can finish another 2 this yr.
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聽日要first of all bring the material to the school and ask them to help print the copies.
last time I print for 20 students 就沒有了$20.
the panel last time 還說不好意思,其實是應該bring to school and ask them to print
今次我有成6張紙,
終於唔洗自己print, 真好
then need to meet lecturer with groupmate
and lesson till 630 =_=..........so bad.
so bored with it...philosophy...
and so HUNGRY with it too...
no matter how big my lunch will be, when the time come to 5, the stomach feel like nth is inside and just acid there.
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I want to find one day to go for a walk anyway.
need to relax a while.
right after my preparation of Sat lesson is done, I'll go out, or perhaps watch a movie at home.
"Stand by me" is a film I'm gonna to watch it and it will be used on Sat too.
tiring day tmr
gd night.
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今天.........感覺似曾相識,my fd?
but I'm shortsighted, would have never recognized anybody 's face.
instead, I'm always familiar with ppl's walking posture and body shape.
this is only what I can "feel" out from ppl I know from far away.
is it all these make feeling comes out?
又過了half month....
[汽水]
Hei: 很久沒見, sorry for late reply.
Much Better
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