Kit Ying: yea of course, she's back, but we're too busy to hang out, even for a chat on phone. I don't have time till Xmas and she's sth to do also. you can find her anyway.
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Hei: thx! I ex. seldom scold them, but i can say this is not gd. must have to scold band2,3 students. They all are Small ppl ghost big. Things that u know they may know too...whatever...haha, guess it by urself. cos too much i can't discribe all
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Sorry I was v. busy and v. black luck over last week.
but I can't say it in detail cos I'm super exhausted.
and have another assignment which its deadline is on 4th Dec.
Last week:
Fri I taught a class of f.5..really taught them...a comprehensive passge abt sudoku. quite gd that day actually..but just v. busy. cos nearly work for a whole day.
um....When I said good morning class, they all stood up and greet me too. Of course when they bowed, I bowed too at the same time.
although they're band 3 students....um. they are not that bad...i think it should be a top band 3...
the class even speak in eng in the lesson....so embarrassed I spoke cantonese for almost a lesson...(totally two lessons)...until a boy spoke in eng, asking Q..
I felt shocked.. so changed channel lor.
v. challenging ...cos I just knew I need to really teach them instead of "look at" them as 2 打6 substitute teacher.
at first I was v. 騰雞..cos in that passage I had a few words I didn't know..so have to check it out within 10 mins then lesson started....
...but only big dictionary there =_=................how TRADITIONAL...
Sat: 第一次受到挫折...
cos on Fri night I prepared everything till 2 am then woke at 7xx and taught f.1 class.
they just played with the materials without trying the conversation printed on the worksheet and didn't listen to me either.
I felt so angry..luckily I was still calm.
but I did want to cry ...cos I've prepare nearly 3 days thing they just waste it.
so in the final 15 mins I didn't speak and just black face, actually becos I want to cry.
they realised that I was angry of course then became quiet.
finally nearly the bell rang I spoke to them....I just want u to practise the conversation so that I made so many cartoons whatever..but u just played only...next time i'll never prepare any games for you
and opened the classroom door and left myself once the bell rang.
feeling v. bad I went to the park and had a walk for 20 mins to calm down then back home.
Sun: zZ X 3 from morning till 6...
then studied overnight...seem 4 or 6..i dont' remmeber lu..cos in recent days I'm always like this...
just 2 or 3 or 4 or 6....these four.
Mon: Grammar exam. really SHIT. becos
1. of course not study v. well and lazy study then went to school. (半放棄)
2. forgot to bring watch...this seemed my 2nd time i forgot to bring watch when exam.
3. the most XYZ thing happened on me...as I didn't bring watch , i chose a seat that near to the clock...
and when exam 's abt to begin, Q papers were passed to me and I just took one. then do it
my paper there were 7 Qs...ok.
v. soon i finsihed all then just un un leg and relax. but felt strange why others were so slowly? suddenly so happy...kee kee
but then I sat for over 10 mins there 'hair 緊'...just wondered y in the paper why there's no a part of writing 100 passage...cos professor had mentioned it before. so I then asked..
The eat poo big tummy professor look at my paper, gave me a new one...which has 2 big Q more.
I shocked and 定型 for a few sec.
then foul at him....oh my god...shit , damn.
but I already scared and no mood continue...just tried as fast as I could and finished all at the last min.
never felt so black luck...only me in the class got this shit Q paper.
although when it's abt to begin, my face and ears suddenly felt so hot (it's v. seldom happened), I said oh..it must be black luck today..
但係我講下ja ma..!!!下次真係唔好咒自己!
I was so unhappy and angry with him. He should be professional in teaching!!!!! Why he didn't check the paper before starting the exam!?! What the xxxx! I nearly wanted to foul some more at him.
枉我還好心係evaluation form 寫佢好說話
我恨不得即刻寫he should really be fired!!! so angry with him and my black luck..
..unhappy back home....
Tue:after half day school just busy with hw at home..but too tired..so did some and zZ some on sofa till 2xx can't tolerate anymore then gave up and zZ
Wed: found that I forgot to renew my book from the school library. then of course I was fined..but so shit...those bks I borrowed are more special...then I was fined $5/bk each day....but ..the bks (X3) , two of them at home..only one on bag (was it lucky....?.... .... ...) ...then needed to pay $25 for only 2 days.... these bk really pk.
afterall an hr later at 7pm burnt my left thumb when I took out the Dinged noodle box from the microwave oven in 7eleven. painful for a whole night while practising that silly eat poo choir.
Super tired cos I woke at 645am...stayed in school till 930pm and arrive home already 11pm.
today I was still so black luck...v. unhappy and angry again.
明明said 12 noon met in ITS room for group work discussion.
but finally just I was there till 1pm they sin appeared.......with lunch taken already.
搞到我要執晒手尾.
and then we run the flow of presentation once more then 130 went to lesson together.
.........although this time I'm the leader of the group..shouldn't throw everything to me lor. eat poo.
I didn't take any food for lunch till 6pm..
I just ate a corn ham bread for breakfast at 9am... I felt v. hungry during lesson so I was in bad mood.....also ...last night 為了這個eat poo no mark count presentation work till 4xx 頂唔順then zZ an hr and wake again and did it again till 53x zZ...till 945.
so very bad mood.
in fact the presentation work is just TWO slides..
but I need to read a few passages of the bk ma ..otherwise don't know to start tim.
last night choir back home already 11, then bath and pack school bag already 1..
then sit for a while 2 sin start...
too tired couldn't work on.
so just laying on sofa and read a line,close eye read a line....repeating same thing then fall asleep
then today finall done
but they presented in a wrong order..so my part was the last to be presented. actually should be the 3rd.
ok, then it 's my turn and I said: and now comes to the last goal of misbehaviour called inadequacy....and...
"STOP" professor said(another one)
time's up. u all can back to ur seats.
I felt very very bad mood.
and black face to him.
at once wrote bad him in evaluation form. it's my 1st time rate professor bad. (but his module is really bad..just not give 1,2 bads more to him after he did this)
I felt he didn't respect my effort
so i didn't repect him too in the rest of the lesson and just chat with 小人G for assignment.
雖然我都知our group work this time is not v. gd
但係我都捱夜super tired to finish it.
and each person just has 2 mins presentation and he stopped me.
again....all waste again, but this time don't feel want to cry. just v. angry. I hate him.
cos other group it's over 10 mins but still continue. just our group is like that.
finally discussion for 4th 份assignment.
5個人,似o益交
思想好唔同
can't compromise..
最後discussed over 2 hrs...quarrel-like discussion.
sigh...搞到我有幾樣重要事情今日做唔到
變成聽日又係a tiring day. cos need to go several places ,How poor!!!
sigh. 4th 後再說
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我最近就是愛上這位星洲女歌手
she sings bossa nova...kind of brazilian music mix with jazz..sth like that ,not so sure.
same as Hikki, 成隻牒over 90%聽得人
but her songs 's difficult to find(but I have hee hee)..even her CD album...連lyric 也未必找到
maybe she's not famous
need to go to HMV 先有
如果buy all 4 discs,then 一定過$500 @@
she's just a yr older than me, v. pretty too. so 羨慕!
she 's able to sing in a v. relax way. never feel she's rushing.
She's called Oliver Ong.
o係我之前行入一間ok 出名的boutique聽到 quite impressive.
goodnight
>>November 30, 2006 at 6:34:51 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 22 日 星期三 【晴】
bad mood today, unstable emotion. get angry with whole world.
fall asleep on bus and almost the ppl had already gotten down from the bus and I JUST woke....seemed lost 95% conscious.
back home fall asleep at a critical time so I didn't go to school to hand in the materials
so I need to copy by myself.
mum helped me to get them copied. I'm just too tired (finally mum said the shop closed...eat poo)
but I felt so bad cos it's my own task.
I shouldn't ask other else to do it.
so incapable.....yuck!
btw.....my Grammar exam...even haven't studied for a BIT.
一考試/assignment 我就覺得好.....心情好差...dont' know how to deal with exam pressure when I'm growing older and older...don't know y.
dizzy sleepy but busy
tmr early morning,
goodnight.
>>November 23, 2006 at 4:04:52 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 20 日 星期一 【溫暖】
worried and frightened abt the drastic change of weather.
not much rain in summer but instead big rain in late Nov.
but when 小人G said, i think we should buy more summer clothings cos the weather's gonna quite hot throughout the yr.
to my surprise.....our relationship 's getting better.
more sharing.
less selfishness
so 總要有人願意先去付出..........
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feel quite full recently .....kind of satisfying myself.
used to search lot of information in the library, learnt quite much.......
the library in ied really contains lot of edu. materials...v. useful.....
really hope ppl can donate more $$ to the institute..so that more resources come..
the ranking of this library is quite top among asian countries, in edu field
my assignments and part-time work push me to find and learn those relevant information, in that way found so much new and useful bks, which include lot of activity samples...whatever. (that i can copy,heehee).
I can apply the same thing on my hw as well as to my class i teach
so I feel all the things I'm doing right now is meaningful.
I'll keep doing this till I find I myself can't take them into my brain anymore =厭
To me Interest always comes first
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very busy
crazy for Grammar exam. cos not yet study
don't want to study at the last min for this sub.
many things to do.
this Fri need to substitute a teacher again..
this week also v. xyz.
after 27/11 exam then another assignment deadline on 4/12
sigh...然後一口氣捱到22/12 透透氣再交5/1的assignment.
心情好差
又俾蚊咬, 好紅好痕好腫好難頂....
一俾蚊咬我就會好唔高興,谷底心情
一共已經3 大達印
仲要我Fri 著裙, gum 核突, why ?!
妖,I hate dress even more.
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剪jor 個頭
around 3 inches la.
quite gd
我發覺我根本唔適合留長頭髮
我無辦法打理, I'm so lazy and hair is kind of trouble for me.
今次又係個老闆,gum arm.
佢又叫我電-ve 離,叫我再考慮多次
電一次會好看得多
個頭唔會gum 散...gum "蓬鬆"...(i think he wanted to say mushroom =_=)
但其實.....e+都好次唔多popular......
don't know,
每年年中我都聽過二十幾次叫我去電, from all different fds..
But I'm always struggled....
我再lum lum la!
don't type so much,busy
need to prepare fri and sat materials.
goodnight.
why mid-Nov is still so warm....................................................
>>November 19, 2006 at 6:37:51 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 13 日 星期一 【微冷】
用人不疑,疑人不用
15/11 Phonology exam
I just use one day to study....let's wait and see my result whether turns out to be a shit or a gold.
>>November 13, 2006 at 6:31:00 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 11 日 星期六 【微冷】
個食C 訓導要我著裙
sexual discrminate lor.
why miss have to wear dress?
it doesnt make sense!
becos of this I sin got to buy dress last thur.
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[可愛]
on Sat I wore dress...then sin realised she meant I need to wear when I'm a substitute teacher, that means wear on Fri. Sat can wear trousers.
Sat I was nearly late for school...so scared
cos 搭正830 arrived.
in fact if I didn't wear that eat poo high-heeled shoes from my sis, I wouldnt be that late.
she recommended me to wear it, but it's too big,
落樓差d 都luck 埋對鞋,妖.
搞到一步步慢慢行先力保不失...對鞋still "attached" to my feet.
if not, i wore other shoes...2 mins already run there.
..................好無奈.
校長望住我簽到la..有d尷尬.....下次一定要小心d.
星期六的課我prepared so much and used much time.
cos I'm so fresh I devoted much to my teaching job.
可惜turned out they feel bored.
but I have to say those poems I prepared are really really interesting.
maybe a bit difficult for them.
so they didn't pay much attention.
still need adjustment.....
入到班房,
好開心,cos they quite welcomed me when saw me in.
some boys may yelled mizzy today played what ar, mizzy 你爭我糖呀.....etc...
a girl said: mizzy 你好可愛呀.....
突然我覺得頭腦一片空白......
cos I didn't know how to respond to it.
after a few sec ,i didn't look at her.
很不情願地說thank you in soft voice and with a weird smile (I guess it should be)
(.........唔係應該我話你可愛嗎?.......妳細過我ga bor.).....
mud 尊嚴都無晒........
哪有人對自己的senior 說這樣的話..........
可能是那條泡泡dress 的問題.....
I back home told mum abt this.
she said that dress was lovely.
it 's just a simple brown dress......just the cutting is bubble like..
sigh 真係好煩呀頂
唔著裙咪無gum 煩lor.
所以我下次還是買條黑色西裙算..
I remember, ppl often "praise" me lovely.
我都知I'm not pretty enough.
所以我聽人讚我gei 時候, 10 次有9次都係lovely.
'lovely" 呢個字,ai ya....我成日都覺得係....just like if a boy not handsome, i'll say: you look cool !
so I really can't get the meaning of this word from different ppl.
whenever I heard this I'll think for a while and stay neutral.
some ppl may say: I 'll keep using this word and won't change it, cos only cute and young girl deserves it.
最好你地真係gum 諗la, 我過多幾年都青春玩完....
到時候還說lovely就太遲?!
these 2 days emotion is unstable.
suddenly wanted to cry at night without reason...
finally just stood somewhere near the window and cooled down
i dont know y. much pressure.
maybe the exams and so much stuff are coming.
I don't know how to deal with them...2000 words, 3000 words... 100words/hr....then.....
I wonder if I can tackle them all...
and don't know what I should consider first.....
poor in time management
poor in pressure releasing.
now, within 2 days , i have to:
-finish a powerpoint preparation of Grammar teaching skills.
-a few Grammar analysing exercises of LPAT oral paper (Language Proficiency Assessment for Teachers)
-study phonology exam on this Wed morning.
want die dare not, bye.
放棄規則 放縱去愛 放肆自己 放空未來
我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎 我不轉彎
長大難道是人必經的潰爛
>>November 12, 2006 at 4:36:46 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 10 日 星期五 【晴】
pl: then eTum is also very gd for you, hee hee.
Sorry for late reply cos no time to check recently.
no la. staying home and bored is gd.
at home if not zZ, I can just do society duties/prepare teaching material/assighnemt/exam.
all of them are in urgent
feel very bad.
if very high paid, will feel better.
but if talking abt the salary, I feel I'm not satisfied yet.
嘆得就好嘆吓
once start, then seems can't stop.....don't know y, sigh.
a bit like women who used to make-up, once used then addict to it.....
maybe not actually addict to it...but can't live without it.
they said, if I don't use it, then I can't go out cos I feel I'm so ugly.
and in the same way I feel I'm so lost if I don't work on.
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on thur I was so tired..........
cos I change the time of a lesson to 830 instead of my normal afternoon one.
then after 2 hrs i stayed in pc lab to print out all the notes of severeal modules.
and stayed there for over an hr..so silly. cos I have to look at which page i need to print out (cos totally 9x pages, i need to find out which is really useful to save my print quota)
then used abt 2 hrs in library and lang. learning centre to prepare teaching material for Sat.
then back home
before I back home I went to the sec school to take the cheque and reference books for f.2...
but then the ppl who was responsible for this is not here.
so I have to stayed in school for nearly an hr
cos the teacher whom I would substituted her on Fri told me abt my duties in school the next day.
then back home.....continued preparing Sat materials..............from 4xx till dinner.
after dinner at around 9 pm I rushed out to buy clothings and shoes.....
I feel so shit cos I'm really so tired.................
but things in my wardrobe are not suitable for working...
mine are just look like students' wear.
sigh.
I couldn't find any.....walk walk walk......so fast so c dan.
till nearly 11pm.....i sin could find sth match
bought a 上衣, dress and a pair of golden like shoes
then rushed home ....
bath....already 12 pm....
read a few materials for Fri morning lessons...
around 1xx I zZ
and 645 wake.................
I never ever do so much thing and so busy.
......
I've quit the job in centre already.
hope going on is better.
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that night just rushed for clothings
其實我一d都唔想買3 at that moment.
覺得好煩, just want to stay home.
例如行過2%...店就真係好大
但係真係無一件買得落..don't say it's a brand or whatever...單是看那些3...好punk,好花呢碌...even 我普通出街都唔會buy 呢類.
Esprit 仲衰,心口點都要寫住個牌子名.....我真係好討厭
覺得有少少折墮.
9點行到nearly 11點時候,
眼見d boutiques 陸續closing,
就心急, on the street suddenly want to cry.
還是第一次買3買到想喊.
今天還可以
just 85%fall asleep on school bus; on the way to school and back home.
sometimes I'm abt 60%
if over 80%zZ
then I know I lost consciousness already. can't make response.
that means don't know how far the car has gone already.
Sometime I really worried if everybody get down the bus and I still zZ
so I would suddenly wake to see where it is now.
發了封嚴厲的email to all choir members.
they're really naughty
最初我還很友善地說你們很自律,所以if 請假just sms/call me; I trust on you all. Add oil together~!
but then, 原來人真係唔寵得
small attendance in result.
v. bad and makes me worry much.
cos our performance is coming soon, IN PUBLIC.
I'm really scared.
so 還是加重了語氣說類似...ur commitment is kind of responsibilities...the society will regard it as a bad behaviour...etc.
the email draft used me up for abt 2 hrs.
cos 1 hr I typed the chinese one, but then the webmail time limit exceeded and the whole thing gone.
I'm so...........xyz
and then I type an English one........
In fact typing chinese really v. fan.sigh.
so today is just a bit better...after the email.
I seem become a bad person.
but I know if I keep like that, be kind, will die.
I do hope next time all will come.
and I ................waiting for the 730pm practice in school since 1pm is not really a fun...I also devoted so much to the society. cos it 's really fxxxing tired.
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this wed, 小人G stayed with me for the whole afternoon.
in fact I want to stay alone in study room and zZ
but it's fine if someone accompany.
I bought a big sandwich as lunch...just some egg+chicken+some different kinds of vegetables.......
she too.
this is ex. seldom.
cos she's that kind...never like to spend $..even for buying food.
...never willing to stay with fd...um, spend time on fd.
but today she did!
so it's quite surprising
recently my relationship with her is getting better...(if she doesnt do those 小家behaviours)
having a big big sandwich we just sat on a chair and chat........
again,
girls used to chat on those topic...not X, then Y, if not X and Y, then it must be Z.
fashion,beauty, love affairs...是非....sth like that...
不過..對於那些topic..
確實是有無窮無盡的說話可以講
就是這樣..竟然談天談了at least 3 hrs........
oh.
from leisure room talk to library conference room still talk.
um. today I feel like she just said all the things from her heart ..
told me lot of things.
then after all in toilet said: no fd to talk to at normal time, now I feel much better cos it released.
biologically and psychologically,hee hee.
most of the words are complaining her silly bf.
she really has a gd temper, tolerable to him.
not getting angry with him
and deal with it in another way, scold him lot in front of me.
I think this maybe gd. maybe, i dont' know.
My tarot may not be accurate.
but it's a gd kind of communicating tool. healing.
it really works since I was quite young.
6/11 had a surprise.
the principal phoned me today, left a msg,
asked me to call him back.
I rang him
he's very polite
and he asked me to be a substitute teacher in the coming 3 Friday mornings
from 750-1245
oh.
I was so surprised.
This is already the third offer the school gave me.
then I must have to quit centre.
the details are not yet known.
wait till thur ba
cos I need to back there and take the reference material first.
oh I seem have to walk into a f.1,5 and 6 classes.
oh, it's really really really so challenging!
我應承了
actually the third one is not very high paid.
but anyway, it's kind of ...好玩呀!...I like it.
doesnt like teaching abc phonics. too simple I dont like.
I feel I'm really so lucky.
cos the Eng panel and the principal treat me good.
I like them
they 're very polite and nice to me.
I feel warm.
I like the school, despite the fact that students from there are not that smart and maybe even quite naughty sometimes; and despite that the resources in this school is really so limited.
the students have innocent hearts.....for the time being i sense it.
of course, perhaps I'm not an on-the-job teacher, so they treat me good.
I dont know.
anyway, so busy.......
so tired.
極限了
goodnight.
>>November 6, 2006 at 5:35:08 PM GMT+8
2006 年 11 月 5 日 星期日 【晴】
pl: mama la, 唔係好多$$$$$ la,因為都唔係番得好多gei.
支出勁大, now better save a little bit first.
下個sem 就有可能有呢個earning機會
不過真係等我過埋Grammar sin, 因為更加有可能的是會fail
如果唔fail,我下個sem Mon Fri Sat就會去揾銀
Whole heart devoted to $.
E+唔係好敢
萬一GPA跌番落2.5就死.
係mic ga?! BB焦, I remember my BBjiu rate is 20 min/ chicken wing.
如果我要食半打, then I need 2 hrs.
最好都係half-cooked 然後+ 浸honey 係爐上面扮燒2 mins 即食.
冬天BBQ,好日子
na.....你呢個樣做證--> ^3^
gum 你快d 入架車仔然後apply 埋你d super driving skills
我要坐順風車兜圈,好玩呀!!
我last week食布lum gei 時候已經連車牌都幫你lum 好
elum0317 認真唔錯唔錯
e....lam 都得gei ..... kaka
gum 我就做完everything後準備份elegant 的新居入伙禮物賀下佢. -.-V
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doing hw. 打錯, i don't teach f.3, it's f.2
these days busy, wait wed.
玻璃面具裡面的感情情節鋪排is v. attractive.
Al ,surprisingly ,is touching!
Earthsea is a bit like harry potter.
Kit Ying: yea of course, she's back, but we're too busy to hang out, even for a chat on phone. I don't have time till Xmas and she's sth to do also. you can find her anyway.
用人不疑,疑人不用
6/11 had a surprise.
pl: mama la, 唔係好多$$$$$ la,因為都唔係番得好多gei.
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