然後昨日發現mp3 內所有for 下兩份一大一小功課的錄音存檔都沒有了.......
10多個音樂檔..
那叫我怎麼辦
I dare not imagine
>>May 5, 2007 at 7:39:36 PM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 30 日 星期一 【晴】
on street i can see many ppl are coughing.
mum and I seem having similar symptoms
these days morning my throat is feeling dry.
and today just a little bit itchy and painful.
so right now i'm just drinking that 枇杷膏
hope it will be fine anyway.
cos I can't feel ill in this crucial week.
and I'm really scared of this assignment. too much to prepare.
too little time to work on it.
I wonder if I'll be late for this one. I'm scared.
that's y tonight I nearly lost control of myself again
scream sharply in the tub.
...so before I lose my rationality...
i asked everybody to stay away from me.
luckily so far I can still regulate my emotion.
tmr will be a very tiring day for me
i may have to rush back to home during lunch hr.
really so shit.
>>May 1, 2007 at 4:18:28 PM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 30 日 星期一 【晴】
這兩天有點耳水不平衡......
一向都是唔夠訓我也不當一回事
but 剛巧這個week 好像比較特別容易疲倦
that's y feel like MORE 唔夠訓
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然後今天有點心絞痛..現在也是
下受壓至胃也有點痛
今天不是很開心. not due to hw.
even no hw,
壓力很大....
我覺得壓力很大
next faeces deadline 4/5 (Fri), 5pm.
可是下午我330 要教班.
Sat 都要
教材還未準備..
Wed 實習
but Mon Tue i have to mark things.....
other classmates don't need to do these things.
I know I'm black luck.
so what? suffered and resist...u'll still need to think ab---
what's my time left for this C grade assignment.
keep listening songs or otherwise i will feel my heart is being squeezed seriously
cannot breathe deeply, just a bit like minor asthma
terrible
f.5 那年我在這裡take my econ and xx exam...i'm not sure if econ.
i just remember I 've been there twice.
i dont like there as too far from mtr
我記得個日大熱天時
熱到
個個都冒汗
真的很辛苦
我自己都熱到無辦法在等候的時候複習
d notes 全部變成我的紙扇
我心裡面always think if i still have mood to take the exam
我還說過第日一定唔要再o黎呢間學校.
個條slope 行到我喘氣
不過由於對呢間學校有一定認識
聽到呢個news.
it's anyway feeling a bit not comfortable, esp ....seldom heard any explosion in school.
呢間學校d facilities is really poor.. although the school looks quite new and big
以前甚麼 CE maths 時候有個男生俾它的禮堂天花板的光管掉下來hit 中
If i were him, it's really a shit.
入了醫院不能考其他sub 都算了
如果死了or 變了傻仔
oh.
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狂食薯片
那是jumbo size.
飲埋屋企d 維他奶
就真係吃得我好飽
胃口真係好難控制
有零食/口rubbish 又點會唔食
明明知道自己都好飽了
但係口痕痕...又忍唔住put one more
put one more put one more..
i found that it seems give u some energy at once
not bad
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去加拿大的事,
studies 那方面,聽上去還不錯
會有個當地的student as a language partner 陪兩個HK students,幫助他們適應大學生活and 學習
其他兩間沒有的.
所以我覺得呢間大學的system 不錯
然後他們說hw 會很多,workload 重.
不過這個應該無問題吧.
係唔係點都要做ga la.
and then for homestay..就擔心得多了
仲未知道自己會stay with whom
我後悔填多了些detail. oh.
Sat 聽talk 聽了成日
甚麼 insurance...死了得個20萬
人命真賤
that's y we have to enhance the values of our inner self.
然後甚麼culture adaptation....廢的.
說了很多東西嚇我...甚麼bath 有些homestay 計得很盡會計時15mins max.
如果just 15 mins
我就真係好擔心
and of course, 唔開心.
而且外國人係used to have morning bath.
心想: ...after school, become dirty and back to home...and then just jump on bed and zZ with these dust and dirt??
我一定要好運d...有個好相遇o既homestay, otherwise 我會死
下午after lunch 那個talk 就真的useful
major and minor sub selection ...and some sharing from senior Yr 3 students.
in this group, 敵人多過朋友...成Group 24 人,只有大約10個有好計傾
真討厭...for such a combination of ppl
超寸的樣子已經令我覺得很討厭.
個賤人the dog都係CAN. 哼. rubbish.
所以可能忽略了她
似乎她很沒有安全感
但是因為這樣,她的那些不安感就給了我很多安全感...否則我又會為去CAN緊張起來
其實我想跟她說既然佢UK都唔去,choose CAN,仲要specify 原來係因為我去CAN, 我又點會gum 賤唔理佢.
just forgot to tell her...=_=.
說實話, 去這種course沒有朋友一起的話..到現在我才知道會很難受
因為原本無小人G時說好同Irene 一齊. 不過Irene gum 外向...有時候鬼影都唔見...丟低你...你又咪係自己一個....
那是homestay. not Uni hostel...
Dr. Hoare 講得對...he has told me that it's important to have some close fd together.. this is really crucial.
看the dog 坐在那裡,已經寸不起了
cuz she's lonely and no fd with her for CAN.
no fd, in other way to say...that is just like ISOLATED.
no matter how independent I'm ,i still need some peer support in a new environment
看她緊張得連tick 觀光preference choices 的boxes 也要對到一模一樣才讓我遞交
我塗改佢又塗改.
我說我無興趣amusement park and zoo, 沒有tick.
她說有興趣想tick 但又沒有tick
我tick---professional sports e.g. NBA match, hockey..etc.因為我有興趣看
佢無興趣都tick 埋
我覺得我自己好似衰衰地.
但係..我唔玩得機動...and dont like to visit dirty animals..=_=
她的反應讓我回想起很久以前那種....
很懷念的感覺;
simply becuz everyone likes to have ALL the attention from the person he/she likes.
and that makes u feel SoSo secure...
好飽...i feel like my stomach is burning. i feel regretful....=_=...hope i can zZ...goodnight.
>>April 29, 2007 at 6:52:48 PM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 28 日 星期六 【晴】
today i was quite bad luck
btw, i'm really really exhausted...
really.
goodnight.
icq got fatal problem these weeks.
i'm afraid it will be permanently shut down
dont leave any msg there
anyway.
i'll try to fix it , if i have mood.
drop me a msg through email/sms/call.
but not icq as i can't check them now.
然後就是TSA....seem call territory wide school-based assessment.
education reform 下的新措施,,,anyway.
and also a new topic that i have to learn in module.
just made 4 times of roll calls.......
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when back to home I really wanna go out to have a walk
struggling......
but physically exhausted so i still stayed home.
然後浸浴
很久已經沒有試過了
I just feel 壓力爆bowl
因為那天morning我心跳得好重...我知道有不好的預兆
it feels gd when u immerse urself into the 42 degree hot water.
at once u can feel :
1. the physical diffusion of heat flow within 37~42 degrees
2. the water pressure on urself and
3. how much fat u have =_=.......u can clearly witness it.
it's ok. but time consuming again.
sometimes when I come to Festival Walk. and I see the shop LUSH.
i smell those soaps...
irritating me not to have them.
but now I'm rather interested in.......for those which is not that horrible in smell...not so strong.
as I want some bubbles in the tank of water.
u know, it's not easy to make bubbles by using those normal ones.
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[fake calls]
Wed 過後...already too tired and slept early at night
but at 3am i woke up...then could not slept again in a short moment.
i think of sth silly but it really impressed me so much.
她其實就是想引起那班人的注意.
看看有誰會追她
我聽著沒有出聲....起初只會想到...oh my god. how old are u.
at night I feel sleepness cuz suddenly think of this
how poor she is...............
我覺得佢其實even 平時講o既內容已經很明示了
就只是爭在一句我很喜歡你/我想做你女朋友.
個男o既係知道
不過好明顯,佢無興趣
女人的矜持有價值,沒有價值.
就是隨著時代微微產生改變
現在很多女仔都很主動的了...至少我那邊是這樣.
反觀男孩子就很害羞的.
我開始會認為一個社會裡面比較少數量的生物品種就會變成minority.
that's why weaker, more valuable...whatever
just want to pt out roles and values have been switched among boys and girls.
別以為你不作聲一副高姿態別人便會賣你帳;
但你豁出去,撕破臉
也不能保證得到關注
so tricky, so twisted.
有時想到她的條件又未至於這樣差
i really don't understand.
I just feel she's so poor.
it's some women's problem.
but I clearly know, a v. true and realistic rule will be:
if u're pretty enough. u don't need to do these...
so...
失眠就是因為...這些東西真的很現實
做功課好悶
做到死o左.
I rather want exam.
快靚正一次過搞點
好過我抬reference books 抬到shoulder 皮層底下出血
or 手磨到損晒然後起jump
i really hate doing FAECES
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I still have a pile of news cutting ....wed..
今晚要昏睡一下
tmr 我不會上最後一堂了
>>April 23, 2007 at 12:28:57 PM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 19 日 星期四 【晴】
最近不知道甚麼的
總有尷尬的場面和感覺
11,2 點起來執野備課
今天終於都沒有發夢
之前發惡夢到喊起上來
又發夢甚麼拯救世界....我住的地區大爆炸,我趕著叫人疏散
330pm 才開始上課...只不過是一句鐘
但我都覺得好累. cos I just sit stilil and read the text bk for an hr.......
today the Eng panel seriously scold a girl who didn't brought text bk with her.
I just stood and stuck there.....er..........
心裡面其實覺得: 沒有帶就同隔離位share........
這是我們中學的一貫做法
不知道原來要勁鬧
每間學校也有它的culture............
不過, 總覺得higher position 的人無論怎樣,也要有種威嚴
否則無辦法master 個權力......
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教完了就吃枇杷膏, 喉嚨有點不舒服.
keep saying for an hr........
2湯匙
就是那樣啜著吃
吃完會覺得a bit relieve.......
我想我將來會經常與它同在 :P
我真的不懂用聲.
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明天俾班monkeys看finding the nemo.
為甚麼要租DVD 啊?
因為DVD 有English version
VCD 無lor..................=_=
我租完先發覺無English version for VCD.
so I change to DVD.
經過商場,竟然聽到一首很舊的日劇OST.
立即腦海中想起16,7歲那年經常在草地上散步散心那段時期
同現在比較起來
現在的感覺真的好很多了
少了很多不安的感覺
full 很多.
聽到這首歌才發現原來時間已經過了許多
學到了許多
>>April 20, 2007 at 11:05:08 AM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 18 日 星期三 【晴】
the lessons went smoothly on that day.
not much problem, at least not much dead air this time.
of course sometimes i'm not sure if they get it.
but whenever I asked: is there any problem? or any questions? are you okay with these things?
they nodded or gave me some positive responses,
i'd feel much better and relieved.
hope next time I can do it even faster.
I'm quite slow.
lunch time 的時候才發現.......
她很不C文
有時候我心想...就算你不C文,
你也應該在某些場合收斂一下.....
聽到她不停說這裡的學生怎麼勁...F1 'participate' 都識..外國口音...抑揚頓挫....等等等,我好驚
然後再說噢,我唔識講英文成堂,我講jor 中文........佢地又好似唔明gum,我至憎d gum 靜o既班
我話你儘量講番英文...因為EMI 一定要......或者俾多d 野學生做,then no need to say so much.
然後係街問我有mud 野可以食
我話無mud ga..呢度無mud 野食....而且老師gei 選擇都唔多.....唔可以好似學生gum 邊度都可以食....
我話不如去XXX or YYY lor, u choose ba..
she didn't know to choose
跟住佢竟然係街上面'的'了兩個同學仔.......然後說:
喂, do u know XXX or YYY better?
the 2 girls...maybe f.4 i guess....answered also in English....
我即刻話對呢個'共事的人' 說: 係街唔洗講英文ga.....
跟住the 2 girls 我記得好聽話地答and 答的很好,不過答完之後都即刻反問做mud 要講英文?!
她們一定會覺得呢兩個老師好怪好無知............
我企係街上面只係覺得好瘀....................and then I'm sure she's from CMI....
然後經過大排檔...... (heehee, i think u can guess XXX and YYY now)
佢話大排檔,有炸兩!我鍾意食!
救命. 我夠鍾意食咯! 我著住條連身裙你叫我去食大排檔...........
個度全部都o係學生.....如果我仲係學生,或者我著住tee+牛仔我就會去食
我又唔好意思同佢講gum 會好怪.
跟住搞jor 陣先入jor 間正常點點的..不知道叫甚麼冰室..我F.6lunch去過一次..總好過大排檔
then 佢叫jor 份三文治
我就當然食正餐la....仲有成半日.....點捱....
跟住隔離就有d學生....just at a v. close distance.
跟住先恐怖........
說了很多這裡老師的是非...我心lum ,大佬....你當住隔離d學生說x 老師.......chi sin ga......
然後又話減肥唔食甚麼甚麼
有話教d 差班 on Sat 教 high-heel shoes
如果讓學生記得呢?
她說:你要問他們d人吸毒時候覺得點ga?
they said high lor
她說: yes,就係high 喇!
然後繼續問: d 女人著jor 高跟鞋通常都抬高頭唔望人ga la,gum 係mei 呀?
.........(students silent)
然後佢就話: mic 好heel lor
所以就係high-heel shoes.....
我話: gum 似補習社jor d.........(that's y i hate 補習社.....d 天皇一樣講野gum俗,教壞細路)
還有,個夥計都有禮貌地問佢點甚麼食物.
跟住佢就很不禮貌地話: 等等啦! 我睇緊呀!
跟住有說甚麼恆生cash dollar 簽了萬九,要到期了...有$7x cash dollar...有百街coupons la, 奇華la...
你估我換jor mei?
然後佢自己silence and close eyes.........
突然有好大聲話: 係奇華呀! 哈哈哈!
換jor 1x 個, no, 係8個鳳梨酥....and 好多麵包
不過要過期喇,今晚我要食晒佢
隔離d學生........
我開始用手假以托起遮遮我的側臉.......你洗唔洗講到方死全世界唔知道你要減肥,換麵包,投訴那個老師發姣..............
大佬.............................我真怕d學生聽到番去同d 老師講呢兩個實習老師講你壞話
shit.
呢D 野我番工一定唔會講lor.........低俗無品味
其實最反映到she's so cheap is her loud voice and impolite用詞...just like 街市果d
真係好唔掂
係我見過gum 多個之中最恐怖的其中一個.
I really wonder how she can teach ppl.
最後放學還問我幾歲
第一日識就問人幾歲,真沒禮貌!
仲要話, 喔,gum 你細過我 lu
chi sin, 唔通大過你呀! 明知我Yr2 你自己Yr 3...白痴的
我識gum 多個女仔fd都無一個好似佢gum
有時候我會覺得假若她說的內容由我的fd 來說,一定不會那麼討人厭.....
cos they are not that 8 婆 as her.I'm sure. 我敢講這裡讀書的女孩子真係粗魯極有限!最粗魯的那個也不會比這個女人粗魯! 上到大學識唔同o既人或者教過別的學校就會深深感受到!
it's terrible.
佢係甚麼人? poly ga! 似la...見到佢個樣我已經大約估到係邊間.
只不過我唔知道besides appearance, 連講野都gum 潮寸.
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Curriculum and Assessment
2000 words
Monday 5pm deadline.
.........................I don't wanna touch it.......sigh ya.
so fussy
>>April 19, 2007 at 7:02:23 PM GMT+8
2007 年 4 月 16 日 星期一 【晴】
winky: haha, thx! 真係頂唔順pack 頭髮,之前你話一齊去電,其實每次fd 叫我去一齊電我都有認真考慮過,後尾見你電得gum 靚我都再lum 過. 不過我發覺我真係無心情打理,梳頭刷牙呢d 我都已經覺得煩, 所以算了. "留得青絲在,那怕無髮電", 同佢講聲後會有期,haha.
sigh...我都入了功課期. 我要到月底先7788; btw, 你生日就到 la bor,soon after ur exam...不過...我俾那句經典金句 '21.5, 係我牛一' 搞到gum 多年呀,E+對你個生日日期仲係混淆,不如你索性set 夠兩日做生日日期la..反正都有緣分,KAKAKA...v. funny. :D
Good luck to ur exams!! keep contact after assignment/exam period!
morning Another 8婆G phoned me.
morning 等車特別多人喜歡打電話俾我.
其實都係拜託這個那個...都係想我幫手
G 說如果校巴approach, ring me. 佢arm arm 先出地鐵站趕緊o黎.
I said Ok, no problem, bye.
then v. soon the bus came.
然後我站到最後,最後一個上車
踏上去之後回頭看仲未見人影.
跟住我就坐最前
and then 司機哥哥要關上車門了
我出聲話: 唔該可唔可以等多陣....有人o黎緊.....
司機哥哥話: 夠鐘la wor!
我其實覺得非常尷尬.......
但o係我都繼續講....可唔可以等多一分鐘........................真厚面皮.......
司機哥哥有D 無奈,不過都真係等下.
然後G really came appear and ran crazily
and then lying dead on the car.
我覺得非常之唔好意思.
make this kind of request 之前我也沒有想過那麼窘
因為我gum 樣好野蠻....要成架車都等佢一個人.
Oh no......她又不是我甚麼人.
我真癡線! 做晒醜人
番到去小人G打o黎話佢要遲10 mins 到
想我幫佢留位and take notes.
這個就無問題,因為大家之間都是這樣幫大家.習慣了
然後我就到倒遲了10 mins due to that 8婆G....想要借我本ref. bk,所以去上網search 了很久,搞到齊齊遲到......
我真懷疑...我借的書已經不是ref. list 入面professor recommend 的書...你要我d 書幹嘛....又要人show 俾佢看我借了甚麼書.......彩你都傻
然後我tell 小人G,
小人G叫我下次唔好幫佢.
她們倆曾經有過節....
但係佢都講得arm...這樣的要求是unreasonable.
I'm so cheap...
sigh. 心情不好..
好不容易捱過了最難捱的一個禮拜
on street i can see many ppl are coughing.
深水BO一中學火警傷者危殆
the lessons went smoothly on that day.
http://www.schsa