餘下還有兩疊,
不過我不會那麼仔細,
只會看看然後just mark serious mistakes.
因為我已經用了assignment period 來做marking了
人o地無marking,所以2weeks for assignment.
我想我可能要走晒假後的整個星期的lessons做assignment..到時再說
cuz 我知道別人一定會趁這個long break prepare 得很好,而且做得很好
so I can't 'hair'做this time
放假的日子都無出過去
就是出了兩日gum 大把
其中一次還要是詐糊
出了去才俾人放飛機
不過我又沒有angry bor. 因為當自己行街買東西算數
下次真係要清清楚楚約實時間地點我先出
otherwise i'll stay at home and do my own things.
我想我要再埋個袋
因為俾人話..that's too small..=_=.
好委屈lor.
cuz who said I would use it for practice.
買了一對鞋,可能要買多對,真煩
還有我訂購了很多林嬸野
到時好多條數要找.
Uncle 7th April 生日..其實我都不太sure,
不過當時just once asked auntie the date
and then i key in it into my mobile.
so actually I wonder if it's correct or not.
其實都想買份禮物寄過去
最後都係打消念頭
無錢呀!!! 唔買喇!!!!! .\_/.
baby Lachlan 's so cute. It is a big fat boy!!!!! :D
if later he comes to hk and calls me 表姨~
then I bring him to Ocean Park and buy him dolphine & panda dolls la~~~~~
不過到時一定要叫多個人accompany
cuz 我唔想帶住個細路入埋廁所我一邊Or一邊要看實他. :p
批改語文習作的感覺原來很alone.
而且覺得有強烈的挫敗感和罪惡感
this is pressure.
今晚特別唔開心
改改下...才發現yr2實習時候我認為錯的某些地方..其實是有得斟酌,不一定算錯...
突然覺得自己好像害了人,feel guilty
而且有一句: if you're sad or happy, you can tell me every thing.
究竟是everything 還是every thing..還是兩個都通?
everyday every day; everyone every one 我都還算知道their differences 吧..
但everything every thing我就真是不太sure
...腦袋在鑽的時候原來真是感覺很lonely.
我明她想表達的意思應該是please tell me every single thing.......
花了好些時間都沒有結果時...就覺得很挫敗.
我發覺原來我是超級完美主義者
以往我從來都沒有這樣承認過.....
對人對事i want to be perfect.
似乎我經不起錯失..this is pressure.
it isn't difficult for me to write a piece of article..or deliver a speech
but it's so difficult to give a precise and exact ans. for the explanation of some word choice problems or grammatical points.
it's just like asking me y the apple drops down from the tree..so much knowledge behind.
that's what i feel.
suddenly, 我成為了韓貨迷~
我發覺我對很多korean products 產生了興趣
連對鞋都是from Korea.
可惜全線都沒有了. just the display one left, no way!
好彩仲有得訂番多對俾我...otherwise I would be so unhappy.
不過要等10 日lor..煩
我發覺好賤格
things I like sometimes I hesitate, then it's gone
or things that I once discovered I bought it right away but turn out in the next week it's 2,30% more off,
that made me so annoyed.
it seems like kind of gambling, and u have to bet on the best time to 出手!
u make the right decision at the right time, u really feel u've gained sth.....esp the feeling of satisfaction :D
不過最近我已經洗了很多很多錢...幾乎是以$500這個做基本單位支出...
今日對鞋其實是媽媽送的 :p 否則我無$$$花在這些東西上
2 weeks ago我行街看中了但是嫌佢貴...那個價錢我可以買兩對普通的鞋了
最近真的洗了很多錢
不過看看衣櫃or my little jewellery box...又nth new! So strange....i really dont know where my $ flowing away.
好奇怪的
最近物慾大..dont know if due to pressure
想要呢樣想要個樣
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Extra 出了orange flavour 我好開心
>>March 24, 2008 at 7:54:54 PM GMT+8
2008 年 3 月 18 日 星期二 【晴】
i thought it's one pile,
and it was 3 piles.
thank you so much.
and i have to be quick.
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i want to go to 360 this Easter.
if not, the earliest next time would be after summer.
>>March 18, 2008 at 8:49:47 PM GMT+8
2008 年 3 月 17 日 星期一 【晴】
我份人比較低調
只會同自己比和鬥
無意樣樣跟人比較
因為當大家都這樣做的時候實在非常風氣不良and unhealthy
I'm tired of this,
i dont want to see this air's formed among group of idiots.
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真高興,終於買到我想要的eye shadow.it's the first time i buy such thing. just for fun.
如果要我遠遠腾出去city super 買,
gum 我情願以後不用eye shadow.
最近煩買clothing 都超煩
無gum 好心情搞other things.
我覺得你穿甚麼衣服的style 好影響別人對你的感觀, the first sight
"dress professionally" 是教授的remind.
我覺得似乎衣著也是職業的其中一部分.
雖然我不太喜歡工作時那種wearing type,
我會儘量將就一下
it's like kind of contructing a role model and bring out msg like: 當我穿得莊重時你也要behave urself.
別把校服當性感迷你短裙來穿
然後把自己降級成av girl. 俾我感覺真係好cheap.
actually in early Feb i already bought summer clothings already.
雖然俾阿媽話我痴線
i dont care, i feel more secure though
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我永遠都唔明...
y總要用到我的時候才出現
忍唔住都要講句
how abt when it comes to my time, where are u guys? two over third disappeared.
it made me so very disappointed
下次再去旅行/度假我保證完全投入自我享受,
forget all the others.
最最最好笑係,當我係Canada 時候ring back to hk,
竟然有熟人問mud 你去o左加拿大mei?!
我下次應該即時cut 線.
我總是太過想著別人,
簡直waste my time my resources.
they dont even remember u!
今日撞車
luckily i didn't get hurt.
不過嚇餐死
to be continued
>>March 14, 2008 at 6:44:43 PM GMT+8
2008 年 3 月 12 日 星期三 【晴】
"算啦..............."
遇到問題,
我現在學到新方法識得去自己搞點
今晚在街上走走散下心
otherwise if 把怨氣發洩在家人身上就不好嘛
我其實很喜歡行夜街...雖然my family doesnt like me doing this.
我會去安全的地方,做安全的事情,不會要他們擔心
I just positively release my negative feelings.
>>March 12, 2008 at 7:16:34 PM GMT+8
2008 年 3 月 8 日 星期六 【晴】
[注定要死@No Exit]
竟然發惡夢
這個weekend 大部分時間都休息
I screamt out from dreams, sweated & teared.
cuz I dreamt someone I'm familiar with became so violent to me
看了那單前男友斬死女友新聞,我覺得好恐怖
esp. i saw the pic of the small flat that made me feel she was 監生被斬死
long ago I needed to see teacher twice during breaks due to dream problems
情況就類似接受輔導治療,小學一次,中學一次
突然覺得這些老師都很專業(現在我更加肯定老師需要適當的敏感度); 我只是跟他們聊天時候說我對於我的夢境感到很奇怪
他們立即安排會面看看有甚麼問題.....though 沒有甚麼結論
I think it's time to read more books or take some courses about dreaming.
有誰比我自己更明白自己呢?
I never convince someone to understand me, I'd rather want them ACTIVELY listen to me.
我覺得我是那類如果演戲的人就抽離不到角色
sometimes 我感覺過敏和幻想豐富...似乎敏感到隨時得到那個"同理心"的力量.
反而讓我覺得害怕.
雖然每個人最後都要死
但最好不要因為沒有帶眼識人而死
Assistant prof. last lesson besides 屎尿屁上堂終於說了一些人話:
he said 現實中人性是非常複雜, 有些人如果你幫不到他/她改變他/她的思想,你就要儘快離開佢,
因為價值觀是會互相影響,會影響埋你自己.
我非常認同,上了lesson這麼久還是1st time agree with him so much.
我自己也曾經有過value crisis, it took much time for me to adjust...and search for my real self.
替自己定位後,since then,唔arm 我channel 我就唔想再stay with somebody long.
我看不起佢,我唔想做佢,所以我離開佢
就像和小人G一起耐了我確實覺得自己cheap 了......自己好像比以前更加貪小便宜
sometimes 不是說個人夠堅定就可以避免一切. that's not easy i can say.
if u decided to stay with somebody, u should be prepared u both will be soon alike in certain ways.
有個教授說: u're defined by the group of fds u stay with
當時我好驚....i didnt understand..and i was so shocked..原來一個人的identity 是這樣被界定
可能,這是對的...just like if u play with traid memebrs...別人就連你一併說成"蛇鼠一窩",那是無容置疑的
frankly, i have my own definition of gd/bad fd.....
someone better follows me, rather than I am led by others who I doubt with.
but anyway, the point is that, everyone has a CHOICE, they can choose whom to stay with.
有些人喜歡自我淪亡,喜歡群埋晒d 損友gum 就真係無辦法
back to the topic,就算個女仔避得一次,佢報警
下一次他要殺死她,怎樣都避不過.
或者她悄悄地移民外國, 但當人瘋癲起上來的時候,或者連家人都不放過
things like this, with NO EXIT, is really horrible. Is this called a Tragedy?
命運有時真可悲
怪不得我有夢魘
I dont feel well today
skipped the 2nd lesson not becos of the uncomfortable feeling but psychologically i really dont know what to do with Research this course.
I dont know what the lecturer wants me to do?
No one knows what's happening. Of course, for those hard working people, once the lecturer said :hand in the design to me next time.
then they try to do sth.
for me I can't withstand it.......no clear framework or instruction for the requirement
it's difficult for me lor anyway..
but this is a vicious cycle...I dont know the thing and escape away. (mainly becos i know the lecturer will scold me cuz i didn't do anything for the tutorial so i run away :p)
btw, i'll deal with it in Easter........cuz right now I'm feeling really uncomfortable.
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for the LPATE speaking exam,
it's good :)..for indi
多謝晒,搞到我argue 到成個conversation 亂o左攏
我從來都無lum 過individual 非常成功之後有鑊咁金o既等住我歎
cuz the day before tutor 還說Beryl Grace and I's conversation was the best that she had ever seen.
一向我都只是個人短講有問題,....i think the speech yesterday I delivered was the best that I'd ever performed...cuz it's smooth. no "er..er..er..."
所以都好depend on 對手...原來mud 人都考得.
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I just have EASTER in mind
真洗唔多舒服,我閃了
還有那位ASSISTANT prof. 等住我...
>>March 7, 2008 at 5:56:41 AM GMT+8
2008 年 3 月 4 日 星期二 【晴】
PLing: 哦唔緊要~
反正weekend 我在study for LPATE speaking paper,因間我就去考ga la,超級緊張,今日全日心跳快
then around ur bday or Easter 再約過啦~
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I just came back from school
it's so tiring to go to school and then come back home and then go out for exam again
for my school practice
I'll go to alma mater again
suppose the policy of the institute seems not allow for double visit for the same school
i dont know
總之有學校收容我去practice 就得la~
因為IEd 話到現在還有一位同學未有學校肯收.
我呢間都算唔話得
cuz 有些同學的母校今年都無再叫佢o地番去 la way~
sigh....
我教開了band 3...,上次教band 1 我set d task 似乎過份沉悶and not challenging enough
總之又開始壓力大了.
April and May I wont see anybody, sorry.
cuz every week i have to make 8-12 lesson plans for assignment and do marking and find teaching resources.
I feel there's so much to do this year
I may need to attend staff meeting and deal with some other works like extra curricular activities
on the other hand, talk to students when i have free time and carry out my own research assignment to get the data.
Also need to apply another course's theory (teaching grammar) into my own class and then finish the assignment of this course...the practical skills course.
真係好辛苦救命
anyway, I have to ready to go now for the exam at 1830
wish me gd luck :)
Karen: thx much :)
批改語文習作的感覺原來很alone.
i thought it's one pile,
http://www.schsa