2005 年 5 月 8 日 星期日 【颱風】

Today is a special day...
"special" in the sense of... BAD

First: Sudden thunderstorm in HK... Heavy raining... bad humid... wow...
Second: Tough work and monotonous schedule... No food from morning till off work... rash and shout
by nurse like a dog
Third: Spent 3 hours in traffic after work when I go gym... nasty traffic...
Fourth: Eat a bad meal and sit with "trival" in the shop... disgusting

Even that worse? or it is just my own way of thinking...
I am pessimistic person and I have bad mood all the time...
Learning to be happy is an art... and a life long lesson
Trying trying trying...

Two questions around me all the time now..
1) What would happen in July?
2) What would happen in December?
I wonder...

Can you answer me?

>>May 9, 2005 at 3:56:12 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 29 日 星期五 【晴】

Life is changed DRAMATICLLY

I WAS HIRED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
not in Paediatrics, but in MEDICINE...

Although I feel desperate when Paediatric didn't take me,
I feel extremely fortune that Medicine finally takes me... on the date of daedline

THANK YOU
THANK YOU

I will work very hard to redeme this
I will...

I am a Physician Now... !!!!!!!!!!!
My new life starts !!!!!!!!!

>>April 30, 2005 at 11:14:53 AM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 26 日 星期二 【晴】

Mood has been on the low side for about a month,
Luckily I have never reached the dead end

Today is my final interview of Paediatrics
Last "battle" I had....
Done my best and with my best help from Professor etc.
May I take it down?
May I get the job?
Never been that excied... so desperate to know...
I may lose finally, but... forgive me, I have done all my best

Waiting waiting...

>>April 27, 2005 at 3:02:25 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 17 日 星期日 【晴】

Still finding job... although the deadline has gone
I want to be a Paediatrician
I do want
I do want

Please give me chance
One post... two person compete...
Will I get the job finally?
I hope I can have the luck...

Pls give me the chance

>>April 17, 2005 at 4:17:02 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 6 日 星期三 【晴】

8 more days before the deadline of application
Heard from many friends that some post has been assigned already
well... for me, still I don't have any offer

I don't know why I don't have any interview
I just know, the time is getting towards the end
Helpless

Also, I think maybe my CV gets problem which is not attractive at all for the COS
maybe I really need to change
BUT... is that useful or just struggle before the real end?

Work hard is the only things that I can do...
you know what... I starts to have a thinking in my mind that...
maybe it is the last few months which i would be able to work in hospital !!!!
If unluckily enough, I still get no offer from hospital... I will go into the community to practice my medicine
so... no way back to the hospital or any furhter training
That's the reason I should work even more hard... or "enjoy" the last few month in hospital
thank you

I am far too uncompetivie...
Forgive me

>>April 7, 2005 at 10:44:23 AM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】

Hi, my dear friends
I have moved to my final destination in PMH now... together with my sorrow and sadness

First day in my medical internship...
Tough Tough Tough... terrible... terrbile... terrible
People can hardly imagine how tough and "shit" the condition is... unless you really get invoved
Oh... my engine gets full loaded and operate in full gear
It is just like the final stage you play in the TV game which a big and powerful monster will stirke you down unless you win...
I am fighting... fighting for myself, fighting for my future

Future?! Still in a confusion... No interview makes me depressed
But... this is not the worest...
My colleagues have LOTS OF INTERVIEW...
so besides the extreme envy to them... I just left with my hollow self
AND THEN??...
I have to take up their job when they go for interview !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is like, I am working for them and helping them for interview... while I get no interview at all
So the situation would be...
They got their job
But I don't get the job...

I know I shouldn't be that selfish, I should give them my best wishes

Confusion mentally
very unclear...

SCSKC got good news... best wishes to him...
Ask your inner self... what do you really want? Remember your dream

>>April 1, 2005 at 5:27:56 PM GMT+8

2005 年 4 月 1 日 星期五 【晴】

Hi, my dear friends
I have moved to my final destination in PMH now... together with my sorrow and sadness

First day in my medical internship...
Tough Tough Tough... terrible... terrbile... terrible
People can hardly imagine how tough and "shit" the condition is... unless you really get invoved
Oh... my engine gets full loaded and operate in full gear
It is just like the final stage you play in the TV game which a big and powerful monster will stirke you down unless you win...
I am fighting... fighting for myself, fighting for my future

Future?! Still in a confusion... No interview makes me depressed
But... this is not the worest...
My colleagues have LOTS OF INTERVIEW...
so besides the extreme envy to them... I just left with my hollow self
AND THEN??...
I have to take up their job when they go for interview !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is like, I am working for them and helping them for interview... while I get no interview at all
So the situation would be...
They got their job
But I don't get the job...

I know I shouldn't be that selfish, I should give them my best wishes

Confusion mentally
very unclear...

SCSKC got good news... best wishes to him...
Ask your inner self... what do you really want? Remember your dream

>>April 1, 2005 at 5:27:49 PM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 21 日 星期一 【晴】

Happy time goes fast,
my wonderful half year time in QEH has nearly come to an end...

Coming the "hell-of-the-hell" medical PMH
With my "good luck" so far, I would have the chance to strike for "the best" and work like a hourse
Dear, do you know how my limit lies? I wonder.
I just know... I will survive !!!

Job Hunting period started,
under no warning or sigh, it just happened...
"who and who get interview... which interviewer ask what questions... which hospital hire who... who get second; third or even fourth interview... Bababa..."
News is spreading widenly but secretly
It is just like the secret mission, which needs to be underground, which cannot be expose...

My mind goes wild...
My anxiety comes besides me
When my fds got not only the first interview... but many different interviews...
I began to realise how desperate I am... in front of them

I GOT NO INTERVIEW UP UNTIL NOW !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The deadline is coming...
what is happening to me...

Thinking:
-Does my CV and resume "suck"?
-Am I too "skin-deep" in my resume?
-Does my lucky star go away?
-Will I have no job finally?

Dear,
Maybe I am too stupid
Maybe I am too unlucky
Maybe I am too non competitive
Maybe I am too ... "rubbish"

Please give me a chance !

>>March 22, 2005 at 4:52:00 PM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 12 日 星期六 【乍雨乍晴】

I have a wonderful week before...

GO Hiking with my dear fds, Marshall and Tommy, to Sai Kung
what a prettry day with warm and beautiful sunray
so refreshing, my "negative power" is gone
Being company with Marshall and Tommy are great fun to me...
Thank you

Having a great dinner with my fds again for celebration of my birthday...
Still, Elaine gets the most crazy laugh in front of us... well, nothing is to be changed
Full meal and a drink of Baileys'
Wonderful and lust
Will friendship last forever... I do hope so
Thank you

A friend teaches me how to be patient, how to wait, and how to get a deep breath
Telephone is a great invention which can really enhance communication between people and people in different place
I should think positively
life is full of wonder and surprise
But, is 10 months too long a time? I am learning and waiting patiently
Thank you

>>March 13, 2005 at 3:38:46 PM GMT+8

2005 年 3 月 2 日 星期三 【乍寒還暖】

Post Call day is exhausting
Still I go to have gym at night... with my best friend, Even
I want to be fit and slim !!!

We chatted a lot about our daily living
It is funny and rewarding
I envy your life now with yours beloved

However, I may not agree with what you describe to me
Two people in different place could be linked
Fate is created by people
I will created my fate and my future

I like the pictures from SCCSK
Very much
Not professional but sincere...hahah...
but next time, do make good posture
Thank you

>>March 2, 2005 at 5:26:33 PM GMT+8