2005 年 8 月 15 日 星期一 【晴】

Recently, busy all the time
encountered trouble patient and relatives, which
My seniors support me much
Lucky to say so

Sometimes, people doesn't repect other
Doctor-patient-relationship is really really fragile nowaday
especially after so many TV episodes of wrong concept to doctors
"whenever doctors cannot save a life, there should be problem of management"

Oh my god... do you know there are so many diseases that we are not able to cure
there are so many things whichare beyond our control?
If there is God, I would rather advise them to ask the God of why ppl needs to suffer that lots
I want that much none of my patients would die .... but... Am I the God?
Please... be realistic

I try to communicate with relative for so many time
try to explain to them the disease progress, our management and our plan
How dare they can forget all things we have discussed and jumped to a conclusion that
we did NOTHING to save the patient?
Communication skills is important, but... the target ppls are also important
even the damn shit good communication skills cannot make a baby to understand what is Immunoglobulin, what is allergy, what is organs failure..........

Please...repect our professions... and be rational
We are not GOD

I will take this as my valuable experience
I will still brush up my communication skills so that one day......a stone can understand what is disease

>>August 16, 2005 at 3:41:22 PM GMT+8

2005 年 8 月 6 日 星期六 【晴】

Life within this week is wonderful....
Full of adventure and excitment

My patient load get increased... at the time when I start to work myself over the night...
I found that it is really quite tense to be a MO
Deep inside my heart, I feel the pressure

Share with you onething
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Recent a patient was transferred from Old age home into my wards and under my care,
she complained of decrease oral feeding
her age is 95 (pretty good heath)
I can communicate with her... although she can just answer my yes or no questions
I know, she understands what I said
Actually, she has been found to have suspected lung cancer (by means of abnormal chest x ray, but her son doesn't want to induce more harm to her mother...
he decides not to have further investigation or treatment on that)
After admission, this elderly eats more...
but one day... she suddenly develops desaturation... her breathing rate decrease in frequency too
We increases the oxygen supply to her.. and the saturation just maintained at the lower margin
after a day... the situation get worse...
Surprisingly, this elderly didn't get any pain or discomfort
eventually, she will probably die of respiratory failure...
I have contacted the family... tears from them when I manage to tell them she will probably die...
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That is a common scene in hospital...
some may find it natural..
But what I want to say is... I am the one who withness the final chapter of a person

Every patient has their life story book...
no matter what chapters they've gotten
they end up with their last chapter... with me in their dialogue
Their previous chapters may be wonderful or monotonous
I am one of the character in their last chapter...
The one who round up their wonderful life long story
I feel pressure
I feel my responsibility.....

>>August 7, 2005 at 4:31:16 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 23 日 星期六 【晴】

I enjoy the time being alone sometimes...
free
but really i realized, i need ppl's guidance
I need advice

>>July 24, 2005 at 3:38:06 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 13 日 星期三 【晴】

Life as MO is totally different from HO
decision making process, management skills, communication skills etc
all that sort of things require extensive practice
Undeniably, practice makes perfect

Today, one of my patient get an acute stroke which is so so so extensive
She get comatous and there is a grieve chance for her to recover... or possibly die soon
I feel a bit lost... well... life is fragile really fragile

As my senior say... play hard and stay happy all the time since you will never know what go next
Maybe tmr will be your destiny

I am deeply touched
Yes, life is like this... unpredictable, fragile and insignificant...
So, why not stay happy in the rest of the life...

Friends, stay happy and stay cool

>>July 14, 2005 at 4:03:01 PM GMT+8

2005 年 7 月 3 日 星期日 【晴】

終於能當上一個 MO
心情是非筆墨所能形容
見到一個一個病人的床頭掛上自己的名字
心中一點的興奮,
卻有無限的重擔
“我”就是他的主診醫生…
他的生與死也與我扯上關係
我只有認真處理這段關係
但願問心無愧

看見現在的Houseman
只是幾天前我還是他們的時候
現在, 身份己完全改變
有些時候當有人叫 “houseman” 的時候
我還差點應了出來…哈哈…感覺很是奇怪
聽到ho說他們很辛苦的時候, 我一定告訴他們 “一定能扛下起”

很很很希望可以很快 pick up 到工作
很想做得好
很想一切也順順利利

大家也要努力，做一個好MO
加油

>>July 4, 2005 at 2:15:31 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 28 日 星期二 【晴】

Hi everybody...
One day left for the life as HOUSEMAN...!!!!!!!!!
yeahyeah

Excited and wonderful

I will become a MO very very soon

Overall of this year..
Life is tough (not to mention)
Life is full of challenge
Life is changing and dymanic
Life is unpredictable......

I love my life !!!!!!!!!
I should enjoy my life and let me new life begin !!

Moved into the new flat already... Come and visit me fds

>>June 29, 2005 at 3:57:42 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 13 日 星期一 【雨】

My dear...

How can an orginally 13-human-workforce job being replaced by only 8 ppls?????
I am exhausted
really exhausted

That is unfair somehow...
memoriable but tough

I just want my basic life requirement ------ FOOD AND SLEEP !!!

>>June 14, 2005 at 3:45:24 PM GMT+8

2005 年 6 月 3 日 星期五 【晴】

ONE MONTH LEFT BEFORE BECOMING A MEDICAL OFFICER ..................

Time really flies...
really really

So many things have been changed and my new life will be started in the manner which is hardly imagined
I have made my first rent flat
frist time to furnish my flat
first time to buy my flat with new stuff
first time to work as a really doctor...

It would be better if I could have another holiday before my new medical life...
to "reboot" my brain
to refresh my mind
to renew my identity

My friends...
How about you?
Wanna share with me your adventure...?

Elaine... enjoy your life, enjoy your feeling, enjoy your emotion

>>June 3, 2005 at 4:34:09 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 23 日 星期一 【晴】

I have been back from my trip to Canada

It was wonderful and a very pleasant journey
Travelling alone is not lonely at all...
Handling problem by oneself...listening to ppl around you are really a great moment

Travelling alone can enhance oneself's courage and problem solving problem
I love it so much

It is a find refreshment in-between my work in Medical
Rest rest rest...

Now.. back from Canada...
life starts back to normal again and again

>>May 24, 2005 at 3:41:04 PM GMT+8

2005 年 5 月 14 日 星期六 【晴】

Cheers !!!!!!!!

Going to have my finaly Houseman holiday in the coming week.
With my excited mood and hoping heart
I will go travelling to Canada to visit my Auntie !!!!!!!!!

But before I go there, I have to work excessively
Double Call...

Happy Happy Happy

>>May 14, 2005 at 4:35:56 PM GMT+8